I am a highly sensitive being. Always have been. I just never knew it, or simply had no name for it. Until my my mid thirties while working with a woman who studies and understands emapths. I used to think I was crazy. Now it all makes sense!
From a very young age, I remember feeling very different from other people. That hasn't changed. Neither have my big feelings and emotions.
I can't remember a time in my life when I have not felt deeply. I am easily overstimulated by crowds, noise and stress. I consider large gatherings to be six or more people in which I want to escape because it feels so overwhelming. I absorb other people's emotions which makes it difficult to discern theirs from my own. I get easily upset and have a hard time letting things that affect me negatively go. I need A LOT of space. I feel deep pain for the perils of our world.
When I am feeling heavy and sad for no reason, I have to check in with myself to ask if it could possibly be a symptom of the pain of the world. I will never forget the almost unbearable tears I shed when I heard of the oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico back in 2010. It directly affected the beaches I grew up on. As well as my spirit and soul.
If I don't make a conscious choice to disconnect from all forms of media, I begin to spiral. This is almost impossible to do now with social media as part of our everyday culture. I really struggle with finding balance in this.
Recently, Eli overheard me talking about my sensitivities and feeling like I have never fit in. He said to me "Mom, every puzzle piece is different, but they all fit together perfectly". This became brand new perspective for me.
As I continue to reflect on his wisdom, I am reminded about my gift. My highly sensitive nature.
When I am not trying to shut this part of myself down because of its' piercing intensity, it allows me intuition, empathy, compassion and a deep connection with myself and loved ones.
I appreciate my tenderness and openness to feel deeply. I recognize this as a strength and act of courage. I understand not everyone will understand me and I am okay with that. I embrace my stand out, one of a kind puzzle piece. This puzzle piece is one that fits in with those pieces that are similar in shape, size and color. And I am blessed to have many in my life.
If you or your children are highly sensitive beings, I encourage you to learn about the traits and coping mechanisms for a more balanced and peaceful life by clicking this link.